Well, last year when I got back into this (some time in May) I started great. I was doing great. Fall hit... I started to slip. Winter hit, really slipped. Slipped all through spring getting worse and worse... and then when it was FINALLY full swing summer, I finally got my act together.
This season fluctuation for me is either worse, or my life is such that I handle it worse - I think it's the latter.
So... I decided I needed to try something different as I couldn't have half a year of doing great and half a year of doing horribly. (and last year it was more than half a year of doing horribly!) I had to really find what are the big issues I have and find better ways of dealing with them as what I was doing - being near perfect and being healthy to falling completely off the wagon and falling back on all terrible habits was horrible for my health. And to figure out WHY I was failing so much....
What I know about myself - without a doubt:
- I am a carb addict.
- Carbs are terrible for my blood pressure, mood, and make we gain weight AND make me congested so I snore and therefore get worse sleep, which then leads me to wanting to eat more carbs.
- My ability to cope with good habits are extremely seasonally influenced. I can and do eat well and move well in late spring, summer, and early fall. I feel horrible, eat horrible, and give up in late fall, all winter, and early/mid spring.
- I am more tired in Fall and winter (I must have been an animal who hibernated in a former life).
- I am more hunger in fall and winter (you know... have to bulk up to survive the winter hibernation!)
- Get really good habits going by limiting carbs.
- Move more to dull the depressive state of fall/winter with SADD.
- Daily weighing in to keep motivated and stay on target (as that has been a good motivator - for when I'm doing well).
- Try to stay in the "losing" column as I am overweight and I don't like being overweight and it's not healthy for my body.
- Exercising in some way to keep the nibble "bug" out of my head.
- I am trying to steer mostly clear from sugars/carbs. And if I eat them, I try to make them potatoes as for some reason, my blood sugar doesn't spike with potatoes.
- I am not weighing myself. I haven't stepped on a scale in 3/4s of a year.
- I try to eat for hunger and try to make choices that will fill me long term- fat and protein, not carbs.
- When I want a snack... even though I "probably" have had enough calories for the day to break even, I allow myself a protein/fat snack, not a carb snack.
- I am admitting to myself right now that I should concentrate on staying away from carbs more than anything else. I should not be concentrating on losing weight to "get back into those cute clothes". Restricting in spring and summer has worked for me, fall and winter leads to carb craving and caving... which then leads to weight gain - lethargy, snoring, etc.
If it were just about the weight, I would be annoyed with these HUGE swings year to year, but it's not just the weight. The weight is the least of it. It's that I get so sad... and lethargic... and my blood pressure goes up and my blood sugars go out of balance and I start to snore which not only disturbs my husband, but disturbs my sleep too and it is 100% related to eating too many carbs. I MUST keep that carb count low for my health - mental and physical.
I hope this approach will work. I need it to work as I'm tired of feeling tired... and worn out... and beaten up half the year and I blame the carb monster telling my brain that all I need to fix that lethargy is CARBS... it is such a temporary fix... but in fall/winter/early spring, my brain believes it! And once I start, the addiction is renewed and fiercer than ever.